This is the story of someone living with heart failure in his own words.
Dear Dr. MANEESHA BHAYA,
I hope my report below will be useful to you and of help to your readers.
On 13 August this year, I arrived at London Heathrow Airport at about 20.00 hrs after visiting my Sister in Llyon (FRANCE ).
My Son KRISH was surprised seeing me coming in a wheelchair.
I told him I was having breathing difficulties, feeling very weak and tired.
I asked him to take me to his doctor in the morning.
He told me because I did not look well at all,
he will take me to hospital right away.
The Doctor on duty at Epsom General and Teaching Hospital examined me thoroughly and admitted me for further examination and treatment.
Following morning a Consultant Cardiologist examined me and concluded my having had a
" Silent Heart Attact ".
I was transfered to a special ward and put under the care of a Senior Consultant Generalist.
I received night and day appropriate medications, attention and care during my five days stay.
I was discharged on 19 August and returned to Mauritius on 25 August.
All medical and non medical staffs who attended to me were so kind, friendly, efficient and above all highly devoted to their tasks.
I wrote and left a " Thankfull Note of Gratitude " addressed to them.
Since my heart problem, I am physically less active than I was because of my lack of strength and stamina.
I cannot perform as much as I used to because I feel exhausted within a short time.
I have stopped carrying on me and using my mobile phone, instead I use a tablet but, not frequently.
I still cook for myself but, I prepare simple menus that takes less preparation time.
My housemaid Mary, is still in my service since June 2002, over 21 years. She does two hours each time she comes to work, three days a week.
Ever since my retirement at the age of 60, I am living in " Le Barachois " in Tamarin.
It is a little "Hamlet" along River Rempart
that along with River Tamarin together flow through the wide estuary to merge with the Ocean in the Bay of Tamarin.
Inspite of my limitations because of my weak heart, I still live by myself from June 2002 when my wife, todate.
My life style of living is Culturally Rich and Broad as before. I enjoy doing acrylic painting, pencil drawing, , reading historical literature , enjoying good movies and music.
I am socially inactive and do not have and also do not need the company of friends for my pleasure.
My two Sons ANIL & KRISH and their respective Families are adequate for me.
Long time back, Friends and Relatives who visited US before my Wife died and ME after, jealously and enviously asked me ....
" HOW COME YOU LIVE IN A PARADISE " ?
My Answer to them was:-
" I AM ALREADY DEAD,
GOD PUT ME HERE BECAUSE HE HAS NO PLACE IN PARADISE FOR ME.
I AM WAITING FOR HIS CALL TO GO UP ".
Who need Freinds and Relatives like that ?????
NOT US and NOT ME.
I enjoy and embrace everything that NATURE'S Natural Beauty offers me here in Tamarin since my retirement in May 2001.
I am ever Grateful for that
ON AND ABOUT DEATH
Death is a topic that has scared everybody.....
Infant, Child, Youth, Adolescent, Young and Old Adult, all inclusive , because of
FEAR, IGNORANCE lack of KNOLEDGE.
I have here and there picked and read writings on Death without becoming wiser on the subject.
I have read about Death in two or three Editions of Bhagavad-Gita, written by different authors.
But I failed to become wiser because of the complexity of the presentation and language. a
Several years ago, by chance or accident, I came to listen to a Sidharth Bharati's discourse on the 18 Chapters of Bhagavad-Gita on the Youtube and I got hooked on him till today.
I cannot tell how many times I have listened to his interpretation of this Sacred Book, but, I am still doing it almost daily.
My Understanding of Death originates from that source.
One can see the formation (Birth) of Waves on the surface of the ocean, their life journey towards the shore and their disintegration
(Death) on reaching the beach.
The splash of seawater on the beachs rushes back into the lap of the sea to repeat the same Scenario from the time the ocean has existed and it will exist.
All living creatures (plants, animals and human beings) are born with a SOUL, without which they are considered dead. The SOUL is immortal.
When a person dies his SOUL leaves his dead body to go and settle in and bring life to a growing foetus inside the womb of the mother to be OR IN ANOTHER LIVING CREATURE.
THE NET BALANCE BETWEEN THE GOOD AND BAD DEEDS ( KARMA) DONE BY THE DEAD PERSON IN HIS ENTIER LIFE WHEN HE WAS ALIVE, IS THE DECIDING FACTOR WHERE THE SOUL WILL SETTLE.
The SOUL ( ATMA ) ORIGINATES FROM
THE PARAMATMA ( SUPREME SOUL ), GOD HIMSELF, AND IT RETURNS BACK TO HIM.
THE ULTIMATE AIM OF A LIVING HINDU IS TO FREE HIMSELF FROM THE CYCLES OF BIRTH AND DEATH AND REACH THE ETERNAL STATE OF " NIRVANA " AND LIVE IN PARADISE AT THE FEET OF GOD FOR EVER .
The journey to reach The State of "NIRVANA" can take him thousands of cycles of Births and Deaths.
BUT, HE CAN REDUCE THAT DURATION BY DOING BETTER KARMIC ACTIONS DURING HIS LIFE TIME.
Though not much but, This is what I have been doing in my life time and I have been blessed in return.
I WISH TO DO MORE IN MY NEXT BIRTHS TO REACH MY " NIRVANA ".
DEATH IS MY GATEWAY.
Yours Truly,
Krishna Kumar HAWABHAY .
20 December 2023